Okay, guys. I'm back. And I really REALLY don't like to sound like a downer, but I need to get somethings off my chests after what happened in the real world.
To begin, (for those who do now know by now), I have a younger brother, and he is SUPER SUPER autistic, and has speech impairment. While the rest of the day out at a relative's birthday was okay, it was the ride back home that things went south quickly. This is me speaking, but it was like a road trip from hell (literally). To keep it simple, halfway back, he was bawling louder than jet engine, and clawing at me and the driver. I let him play with my arm to keep him calm, though he even used it as a snot rag (running nose from the crying). We had to stop three times along a busy road and halted at an empty school to exchange family members, ending the conflict. It was overall terrible. There were tons of screaming between the 3 of us and high stress, I wanted to tear my hair out. I was told he was acting the same way at his school, too (middle school, and in special ed), but I believe that this was worse. Both me and the driver ended up with clawed arms, glasses swatted off our faces, faces punched in, and almost caused an accident.
And this is me talking out of fear, but I really was scared. What if the constant swatting and ear-splitting bawling did cause an accident? PLEASE TAKE NOTE: nobody is at fault here, but I was terrified and stressed the heck out. Sorry if this is long, but I had to share it.
ON THIS SAME TONE: because of today's crap, it is with a heavy heart that I must delay my next Milestone for the Fat/Cat Drive (after I upload the current one) until next Saturday. The drawing is still in progress, so it'll be up tomorrow. After that... i don't know. And speaking of my drive, excuse me for sounding selfish here, but....
I'm now sitting wondering what is this Drive for. Even with a few small increases here and there for either team, nothing really DRAMATIC is happening for these characters, in a way that seems competitive. Moreover, I'm in a tough financial spot, perhaps even more than last month (April), thanks to these doggone Overdraft craps. I'm almost $200 down on that, plus more money will be needed for overdue bills and loans, that ONE class I need to take to finish a degree (almost $600), a new pair of glasses AND I still need to find a dentist to pull out this aching tooth. I can only take in so much with little help I'm getting, and that with other things is affecting my confidence to art.
Again, I am so so sorry for this long haul, man.... I can only take in so much, and I still need a job. And forget about those government jobs, as that's what got me in trouble with SSA in the first place.
I'm done with this rant. For real, this time.... I don't know what to do, dog....